Waiting and the unknown...

Hubby just left to fly up and see hi mum. They found out yesterday that the cancer she originally had in her bowel has now spread to her lungs after originally spreading to her liver. As to be expected hubby is very upset. The thing that has been the hardest is the waiting for the inevitable. Cancer is a strange thing sometimes it sneaks up on someone and takes them quickly, and others can get sometime like a few weeks or months and others just hard to tell. Hubby's mum fell in the realm of months. However, she has defied those odds and has been battling for just over three years but it seems that as of just recently the cancer has become more aggressive.

All of the waiting and not knowing when or how bad this will get is taking a toll on hubby. sometime I think it's better if the loved one or dear friend is taken quickly. You may not have been able to say goodbye or I love you, but at least you are not faced with watching the person you care so much for slowly wither away. It's important to remember that someone can be taken from you in a blink of an eye. So you need to always remember to never let a day go by without telling that person how you feel about them. I know that when ever hubby or I leave the house we always say I love you because I would hate to think that something might happen and I didn't get that chance to tell him how I feel about him. Also, believe me when I say that it is the most horrible experience watching a loved one die slowly in front of your eyes because I've been there twice in my life.

I've told hubby he needs to make the most of this time with his mum and that any chance he gets he needs to go up and spend time with her. So, off he went this am and we are left to wait out the unknown. I apologise for such a dreary post but I needed to write about this to feel a bit better.

12 of 12 July 2009

So, here we are again with another 12 of 12. If you don't know what 12 of 12 is then check out this guy's website where it will all become apparent. Anyhoo, this is my 12 of 12 for July 2009. I had to take all of the pictures around our house, because my better half was sleeping after doing night duty and I don't drive so I was a bit stranded. I did my best and I hope you like this months photos. Enjoy...

Time to get up. I actually slept in because I'm usually up by 5:00. Yea me I guess???

Time for a shower.

A view from our back deck looking down towards the city and the Derwent river. It's called river but it is actually the harbour. It has been said that it is the deepest sheltered harbour in the southern hemisphere. I'm not sure if that is true but if you could see the whole thing you would understand why I say it is a harbour and definitely not a river.

Some of the word work that makes up the mantle around the fireplace in our lounge (living) room.

Some more woodwork from the same fireplace mantle.

It's just a cute picture. The cups are handmade by a local pottery maker her in Tasmania. I dry out lavender from our garden before I make sachets out of the dried lavender that I then put them in our closets and the dresser drawers.

This is the first of two guess what it is photos. You tell me...

It was a grey and rainy day today as you can see.

The second of what is it photos. Again you tell me.

Self-portrait against the back door of the house.

I recorded all five nights and watched them all today. To be honest I was very unhappy with the ending. It just left a lot of blank spot for me personally.

Just a collection of stuff sitting on top of one of the fireplace mantles (we have four) in the house

Just a picture of one of the paintings we own being lighted by our floor lamp. No reason for this to be the last photo of the evening except it's the last thing before we head to the bedroom each night and we go around turning off lights. Maybe??? That all for this moth once again I hope you enjoyed the photos and we'll be back next time come the 12th of August. See ya around...

A post here, a post there...

...that's the best I can do these days. Thank God 12 of 12 is just around the corner or else the posts would be even fewer. I know I've talked about how flat I've been well now my flat has a dip in it. I really didn't think I could feel so down. This whole looking for work and being rejected left right and center has done a job on me. The other day I got all dressed up best suit, tie and all to go down to an interview that I got after I applied just that morning and they called me like two hours after I applied. I thought this must be a good sign. No more than ten minutes after I got there they had me filling out employment forms telling me how great I was and that all I had to do was have a quick ten minute interview with the supervisor and I basically had the job. Well after I finished the paper work and while I was waiting for the HR person to come back and tell me what time my interview would be, I read the job description they had given me. At the bottom of the second page I see under Essential Criteria "Current drivers license". so I asked to the HR person when she came back '"just how essential is the license?" and she said she would go check. So, off she waddled (don't ask) and she waddled back a few minutes later. Guess what? It seems that you need a drivers license for a desk job. Who f'ing knew??? I mean WTF???

So anyway, I've just about had it. I know that I'm not the only one struggling to find work but JHC seven months and over seventy applications later and I've got jack all. Nothing, Nada, zilch!!! I just don't know what to do. I guess I have to keep trying what other choice do I have. As I mentioned before I'm no longer getting assistance from the government so the small little amount of money is gone but it's not really just about the money. I mean we're not starving and we won't lose the house or anything. Thank God (or whoever) we paid the house off a while back when we sold another property that we owned and the first thing we did was pay off the mortgage on this place so just in case something like this happened and we wouldn't have to worry about the bank foreclosing. I know I shouldn't be whinging because I don't have to worry about those things but it's not just that it's personal. This whole thing is soul destroying. I'm losing all self worth and confidence. Anyway, enough about this. I'll leave it at that. I'll try to post when I can and as I said 12 of 12 will definitely happen. It's one of the few things I have to look forward to. I apologies for being such a Debbie Downer, but thanks for reading and letting me vent. Until next time take care and Enjoy...

New music...

I'm not one to post and promote things like this but I'm really enjoying this music and thought I would share it with you. As you can see by the video her name is Melody Gardot and as I said I am truly enjoying her music. I just bought this CD and also her debut album. Enjoy...

I'm very sad...

I just found out that one of my favourite characters in a British comedy has passed away. I love British comedies like "Fawlty Towers", "Keeping Up Appearances" and "Are you Being Served?" to name a few. Well, I'm sad to hear that the ever colourful Mollie Sugden (aka Mrs. Slocombe) from "Are You Being Served" has passed a way. No one can talk about her pussy like Mrs. Slocombe did and I always waited for her to say something witty about her pussy in each episode. I think one of the funniest is when she was worried about her pussy being alone at home and she called her neighbor from work and asked him to go next door and to look through the letter opening in the door and wanted to know "If you can see my pussy." I can't remember what she was worried about I think she hadn't fed her pussy. Or the time it had been raining so long in London and she was arriving at work and announced to everyone that her pussy got soaked and she had to dry it out in front of the fireplace. I could go on but won't. I'll just say fond farewell to you Mrs. S. You've finally made it to the big retail store in the sky, and can now answer that timely question "Are you free?" and answer "I'm free most definitely free".

Love the hair, love the woman...

The shape of things...

I was bored so I took this little blog filler test. Apparently due to the choice of shapes that I prefer the test results say:

You Are Skilled

You are balanced and competent. You value harmony. Other people see you as outgoing, hyper, and even a bit overwhelming. Your ideal romantic relationship is unconventional, wild, and very public. You do best in tasks that require you to be logical, hard-working, and courageous.

The Shape Test

Funny thing is I usually take these little test things with a grain of salt and I will do the same with this one. however, every once in a while it is interesting when the results do say things about you and you agree with them. For the most part I have to agree with these test results. I'm not going to tell you which parts I agree or disagree with. I like to keep you guessing. Until next time take care and Enjoy...

Facebook and Twitter...

Well, it seems that everyone is playing on either Facebook and/or Twitter and now that includes me. My niece contacted me a week or so ago wanting to share some family pictures with me but she had them on Facebook and I wasn't a member of Facebook. So to see the pictures, I had to join. I actually re-joined as I canceled my previous account as I was not getting a whole lot out of the program. However this time, after I re-joined, I come to find almost my entire family is using Facebook. So it now seems to be the way to keep up with one another with the odd email.

As for Twitter, I joined it today mostly to see what I could do with it. One of the great things is I can update the feed from my mobile, something I can't do from Facebook. I know Facebook offers the option but just not for those of us living in Australia. Anyway, I've only made three post but will make many more as the days come and go. I can see why people can become addicted to Twitter. It's very instant gratification.

You will find link to both my Facebook account and my Twitter account in the column to you right if you're interested. We will see how far this goes and I'll let you know. Until then take care and enjoy...